It's been a while since I posted on this blog. I have been wondering what to write. The overwhelming feeling I have is to write about one dear sister in our ward who is a recent convert. Last week she lost her 12 week old baby to SIDS. It has been such an emotional time. Although I don't fully comprehend exactly what she is going through, I do have on a much smaller level, experience with losing a child. I have had 2 miscarriages in the last few years. And while that is not the same as losing a child who has been born and lived with you for a time, this experience has brought back to the surface those tender emotions I felt when I was going through those losses. I think about those 2 babies often and wonder what they would have been like. As hard as that was, I had hope through a knowledge of a loving Savior who knew the pain and hearache I was feeling. My favorite hymn helped me through those times: "Where Can I Turn For Peace?"
Where can I turn for Peace?
Where is my solace
When other sources cease to make me whole?
When with a wounded heart,
Anger, or malice,
I draw myself apart, searching my soul?
Where, when my aching grows,
Where, when I languish,
Where, in my need to know,
Where can I run?
Where is the quiet hand
To calm my anguish?
Who, who can understand?
He, only One.
He answers privately,
Reaches my reaching
In my Gethsemane,
Savior and Friend.
Gentle the peace he finds
For my beseeching.
Constant he is and kind,
Love without end.
~Emma Lou Thayne
I love that hymn. It has brought me much comfort through difficult times in my life.
Kwin performed the funeral of the baby on Saturday. He did an amazing job and reminded us all of a loving Savior who welcomed little Brayden home. He also asked each of us there to think about the Savior and to reflect on his visit to the Nephites after his resurrection. The Savior took the Nephites one by one and let them feel his hands and feet. If I had that opportunity, what would I do with it? It is important to remember that the Savior's mission is for us individually. I love Him and I am so thankful for Him and a knowledge of the Atonement!
